i shouldn't have grudges should i

Owh so you would like to shoot me huh

Go on...let me walk up to you and force the gun into your hands, force the barrel to my forehead

Go on then PULL IT! shoot me, get rid of me...trust me you would be doing me a favour

DO IT!

I will yell and shout PULL THE TRIGGER NOW! DO IT!

i just need to leave this place...

common common, fight me! hit me! hit me goddamn it!

why don't you ever listen! fuck...

I cant...you know, this...what the fuck is this?

pathetic existence...

ergh, why can't I destroy what I want?

I would have killed so many... you, him, and him and him

This life has hardened me, darkened me

made me cruel almost, heartless...

and then it wonders why, it tells me save things

but how can i?

you send me so much shit...why should i save others?

i am angry, at him at the world

why? i don't know, the world deserves to exist

but its full of shit that i dont want to let live

and then there is you, you bastard

owh...i told you not to break her heart even though you took her from me

you turned everything on me and you held her like there was no problem

and then you broke her heart, i member speaking to you

"if you ever break her heart, i will kill you, i promise you that"

well you want to know something...i don't break my promises

and yet you did break her heart, and i did nothing

perhaps one of my biggest regrets...

one of my biggest regrets that I couldn't build up the will to drag you in broad daylight

and break your bones with my bare hands...

it hurt how i could fail a promise, fail myself...

who cares who would have come to your aid, let them come

you think you could play her like that...you played her infront of the wrong person

and i promise you, someday i will teach you pain, the meaning of true suffering at my hands

That is something about me...i never forget and i never forgive my enemies

Ergh...

some days i can really just hold my head and feel it burning

with hate? anger?

perhaps insanity

The perfectly hidden madness behind a calm and kind face...

I wish...