Waste

I'm tired of this shit...

Tired, so tired...

I can't stand for this anymore

I cant do this...

It's too much, living a life like this

I cant go around just like everyone else doing the same damn thing everyday

I just cant

I think moving from malaysia was a mistake

A mistake i regret...

but then i dont have regrets, you cant have regrets

regrets hold you back

but then again i think i do

argh i just feel like hitting my fucking head against the wall...

Owh i would love to break that fuckers arm right now, thats one thing i regret...

I had a perfect opportunity, i had the baseball bat in my hand

and yet i did nothing...WHY!?

you stupid fuck...

why didnt i just walk up to him and swing it across his face...

oh the world would have shone a little bit brighter for once

ergh, il have my day...

Il make sure of it...

but yea...

nobody cares

pft you think people care?

bullshit they only care about themselves

so why should i care about them?

Why should i waste my time and care

I need a reason to care, take away that reason and i will drop bombs without a second thought..

I just...why...why should i bother?

Why should i be patient with the world when they give nothing in return

I could just punch this wall for hours on end...

I have lost too much, downgraded to a bloody shit hole

how, how is it possible for progress to go in the fucking opposite direction?!

My feelings, are leaving me

My home, shrunk...

My country, gone...

My heart, hmph dont even start me on that

goddamn useless thing

Try and use it right, it gets put down and misunderstood

why the fuck do you think i lock it away in a steal box

Fucking emotions, pointless

it can burn, it can all burn

there is this fucking weight on my chest and it isnt getting off

pressing down,

suffocating

and yet...nobody cares

hah surprise surprise...

its only when im foolish enough to say take my hand when your in trouble and i haul you to your feet

well you know what?

when the world looks up and shouts save us, il whisper no

because why? tell me

give me one good fucking reason why i should save you?

would you save me if it got in your way?

i doubt it

would you fight by my side and back to back when the enemy closed in around us

i doubt it

your a fucking coward

and scum...

Just fuck this

I remember my friends

but i make sure my enemies pay

My head hurts...it pains day after day

like a splitting headache

it hurts so much, a pain that i can take because i have experienced much worse

I also have the patience

but now, why should i have the patience?

ergh fuck this