And turn their songs into cries of lamentation

Hmm what can i say, i'm quite fucking angry.

I never get angry much, rarely actually.

I never see the point, why get angry when i cannot seem to express it.

When i mean express i mean full out rage...

If i do i'm more likely to get arrested...

I've had shit come my way before and i kind of regret why i didn't do anything about it, even when there were moments that didn't involve me. There was this time when this guy was shouting at this girl in highschool, why didn't i do anything? Sure he was huge compared to me, but I would have jumped at the opportunity now, i wouldnt have cared if he beat the heck out of me and won by a mile because all i want is to feel pain and let loose my rage and have a valid reason to do so...an excuse you could say.

Now i almost wish for someone to say something, to come too close, i almost wish for the fight, it is something i want so badly now, utter brutality, no doubt this wont make me very popular but at the end of the day, i don't give a fuck

I'm fed up with the world really, it's so naive and foolish that what purpose does it deserve here?

They can't even govern or command themselves properly or even figure out what is important.

We even lost our natural instinct of war.

Todays leaders are people who can do nothing but talk, Promises of this and promises of that.

Gone were the days when leaders were the best fighters.

It makes me so fucking mad to see idiots in seats of authority such as leaders of countries who can't even provide money to the military to make sure they don't get killed unnecessarily and make the country they govern look like a bunch of fools.

I just want to join the army, become a lieutenant or general but i won't sit on my ass while my army fights alone, i want to be there, right in the thick of it. Get rid of the long range weapons and bring back the age of hand-to-hand combat.

I want to be right up close to the enemy and cut a path through them and stare death in the face and smile as they die by my hands and their eyes roll back and the last thing they see is the blood red banner that flies above them.

I don't want to fight for a country, that would probably be the second reason why i'd want to fight, but i mean these pityful countries are nothing worth fighting for, i just want to fight just for the fight, to lead and to crush.

Fuck tactics and careful military planning to pick off undefended enemy targets, just drop me and 11 other brothers right into the heart of the enemy, even with nothing but our armour and bare hands and let us fight till the death. I could let out countless years of stress and anger in a frenzy of rage, il just let my patience guards completely fall and let the rage pulsate through my veins and guide my hands because Rage is the best weapon any army can possess, second only to the mind.

I could fight for countless days and long into the nights

I want the odds to be stacked against me a million-to-one

It's so sad now, the only place that you are likely to find real brothers and real friends is in battle, forget friends in life, they don't care about you common get a grip. They would leave you at a moments notice if it meant that it wouldn't cause inconvenience to them.

It's only in the heat and flame when your back-to-back with each other would they really be true brothers and friends cause you are literally fighting for yours and each others lives and that is a bond that no one can break.

It is sad, we have seem to have forgotten what real war is and what glory it holds.

Now days the only thing that accurately depicts war is movies and games, which is really sad...

If there is any other act compared to that of battle that is more glorious..please fucking tell me..

I just need the fight, life failed me, faith failed me, love failed me, so what else is there? But to fight.

The only pure thing left.

-If Only-

P.S its a bloody good thing no one reads my bullshit...

if not someone might actually ask what's wrong

now that would be a miracle, someone who cares.

we wouldn't want that now would we...